“But those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles , They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
About 4 months ago, in May 2015, I learned that it was ‘wheelchair time.’ Needless to say, this past summer was a long one as I grappeled with myself about having to use a wheelchair now due to severe trunk muscle weakness including my respiratory muscles. I hated the idea of needing a wheelchair for distance, but complied with doctors orders all the same. During that time, I prayed fervently for a way out, for healing, so I could continue to walk again. Logically, it seemed like the writing was on the wall a,s both my Neurologist and Pulmonologist agreed I needed to begin using the wheelchair. The fact is, I could not walk, breathe or talk after being on my feet for 15 minutes or longer. Yet something deep inside was pushing me to get one more medical opinion, so I did.
About a week and a half ago, I visited Dr. Porter at the Neuromuscular Clinic at University of MD Medical Center. To my great surprise, the doctor did not agree at all with my other 2 doctors. In fact, he and I are now working on my getting out of the wheelchair together! Due to respiratory muscle weakness, it must be done with baby steps, and will possibly take a year to meet our goal. Though it is a precarious proposition due to respiratory muscle complications, I am confident that God sent me there specifically for this purpose, and I am grateful to Him for that!
Clearly an answer to my own prayers and the prayers of many others! My goal is to be strong enough to leave the wheelchair behind, and be able to visit my son in the Philippines next Christmas. To meet this goal, I have started a gentle strengthening program, and am beginning to be able to walk a little further each week.
The great question as to what has caused this 32+ year medical condition is noteworthy, and I am including this here to help others. After talking with Dr. Porter, it appears that untreated childhood trauma is the cause. Apparently, I endured ongoing, severe physical and emotional trauma in my youth, and it caused physical damage to my auto-immune and neurological systems, hence causing Myasthenic Syndrome. And also caused lifelong depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). So there is ample opportunities here for prayer and healing!
As an aside, I am in the editing phase of writing a book about my early childhood and beyond, and that in itself has been very healing. The book is called, “From Broken to Blest: Embracing the Healing That Awaits You.” For healing comes in many forms. Writing it all out has been extremely helpful in ‘getting the trauma out,’ so to speak. It is written for other survivors of untreated childhood trauma, and should be published by the spring.
Today, I am claiming the above Scripture as my very own as I have for the past 30 years. He will raise me up on eagle’s wings I will wait upon the Lord for his healing touch, trusting that Jesus is with me through it all. This Scripture is my signature Bible verse for my own healing, and for my upcoming book. Prayerfully, I have laid all of my mind-body infirmity in the hands of Jesus, The Great Healer and Comforter, and I pray with confidence that He will maximize my health and heal me in His special time and way, as only He can. In fact, I claim all forms of healing in the name of Jesus Christ.
Adele M. Gill | Copyright 2015 www.theinspirationcafeblog.net