Rejuvenation!

“For our struggle is not with flesh and blood but with the principalities, with the powers, with the world rulers of this present darkness, with the evil spirits in the heavens.”      Ephesians 6:12                  _______________________________________________ As some of you know, many years ago, I fell into major depression. It was a deep, dark, and lonely time that required a brief hospitalization, My doctors and family wondered if I would ever find my way back from the depths of torment to a like of normalcy.There were 2 reasons for it: 1) I did not think I could live one more day in poor health, unable to walk, speak swallow or breathe easily. My vision was blurred, with double vision at times, and I could not imagine how I could press on 2) Though I did not understand it at the time, I was flooded with nightmares and corroborative flashbacks from untreated childhood trauma. I didn’t even have a language for what was transpiring emotionally, and just getting through each day was a big deal for me.  It took about 12 medication combination changes to help me pull out of it. Together, these factors in my life presented the perfect storm. Eventually, my medical team found the right combination of medications to get me back on track, and for that I am truly grateful. But there is more to the story… During this harrowing life experience, I learned a lot about myself and life, especially about my faith, from a wonderful Psychiatrist at the hospital. Keep in mind that when someone is in deep depression,...

Eagle’s Wings

“But those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles , They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”  Isaiah 40:31 __________________________________________________ About 4 months ago, in May 2015, I learned that it was ‘wheelchair time.’ Needless to say, this past summer was a long one as I grappeled with myself about having to use a wheelchair now due to severe trunk muscle weakness including my respiratory muscles. I hated the idea of needing a wheelchair for distance, but complied with doctors orders all the same. During that time, I prayed fervently for a way out, for healing, so I could continue to walk again. Logically, it seemed like the writing was on the wall a,s both my Neurologist and Pulmonologist agreed I needed to begin using the wheelchair. The fact is, I could not walk, breathe or talk after being on my feet for 15 minutes or longer. Yet something deep inside was pushing me to get one more medical opinion, so I did. About a week and a half ago, I visited Dr. Porter at the Neuromuscular Clinic at University of MD Medical Center. To my great surprise, the doctor did not agree at all with my other 2 doctors. In fact, he and I are now working on my getting out of the wheelchair together! Due to respiratory muscle weakness, it must be done with baby steps, and will possibly take a year to meet our goal. Though it is a precarious proposition due to respiratory muscle complications, I am confident that God sent me there specifically for this purpose,...